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i have to face facts and this year just has been another shit year for me. life keeps bombarding my deviant life style leaving me rather “normal”. i have spent the last few days deciding if i am going to stop the blog and i am still undecided. my writing has definitely suffered with the stresses i have had to face. yet, i am still finding the time to be up to no good every weekend possible.
the hardest part in all of this is missing a muse. there may be someone but that has been put on hold until i work out my latest disaster.
i appreciate the people in my life that are keeping me sane. i am very focused on having a much better 2010 and if anything a better rest of this year.
if you need a “fix” follow me on twitter (twitter.com/darkgracie). i do my best to keep the filth coming almost daily.
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i have read a few of your pieces on here and was blow away. ive never commented but i thought i would inlight of your latest stresses …
meditate …
“silence is the most powerful scream”
Comment by leelaa August 25, 2009 @ 10:16 pmwell, you don’t need to close up shop and call it a day. So you stop writing for awhile.. that’s ok… we’ll all be thrilled when you reemerge Trust me, I know what it’s like to be uninspired or have life knock you down constantly.
Here’s hoping to a great 2010.
Comment by Mina August 25, 2009 @ 10:18 pm@leelaa thank you for the kind words. i appreciate you taking the time to comment. i think time will tell what happens to my words.
@mina you are my long time friend and i know you have battled with life as well. i am making sure i remain positive. i am a fighter and i am not going to let any of this drag me down. thank you.
Comment by Gracie August 25, 2009 @ 10:36 pmYou’ll get back there, I’m certain. In the meantime remember that we’re all rooting for you *giving you the loveliest big hug imaginable* xx
Comment by roger August 26, 2009 @ 2:06 amHang in there sis, your muse will appear…
Comment by T.M. Camp August 26, 2009 @ 5:40 am@roger thank you sweetheart. i appreciate it.
@T.M. Camp thank you brother, i am sure it will all brighten before i know it.
Comment by Gracie August 26, 2009 @ 10:15 amHi Gracie. I have not known you for as long or as well as some of your other readers do, but I so enjoy your blogs. At times you show humor, other times you share your stresses. Always love the stories. Anyone who attempts to write knows how it is to run into a wall. You write, so don’t worry, you will bounce back out of this funk. It will be even better in 2010. ♥
Comment by Kevin August 28, 2009 @ 11:35 pm@Kevin I appreciate your comment. I am glad my words provide some form of entertainment. I hope I can come back to writing again once i get my life settled again. For me, an idle mind is a playground for the devil and I need that.
Comment by Gracie August 29, 2009 @ 12:01 amSeeing your comments I feel hopeful that you will keep the blog alive and just not post for a bit longer.
Comment by nancy September 2, 2009 @ 4:31 pmI’ve enjoyed reading it so much.. I’d hate to see you stop completely.
Take more of a break..see how things go.. and meditate.. never hurts!
@nancy, i am hopeful i will keep it alive. i think i need a long break. i have to reassure everyone that it doesn’t mean i have stopped being deviant. i just lack the luster to write about it. thank you for the comment. i think my first task to order is to reply to all comments and get back into the community again once i make a grand re-entrance.
Comment by Gracie September 2, 2009 @ 6:50 pmYes Gracie, a a grand re-entrance sounds the best, yet I’ll continue to follow you on facebook. Don’t be surprised if I check up on you occasionally via message. But take your time; I’m one of your “junkies”, so let your mind clear and go idle.
“an idle mind is a playground for the devil and I need that”
Comment by Kevin September 2, 2009 @ 9:00 pm@Kevin, i appreciate the patience. *smile* hey, are you saying i’m the devil? why, thank you.
Comment by Gracie September 2, 2009 @ 9:30 pmGracie, I am one of the many who has silently read, marvelled at, enjoyed and appreciated your writing.
My pulse often quickens and my breath becomes shallow as I read your evocative words.
I am sorry to hear that your year is not turning out as you had hoped. Taking time to focus on yourself is the best choice.
I will miss reading your new thoughts and adventures but look forward to your return. Until then I will satisfy myself by reading your archives and envy your partner while I await and anticipate your next with bated breath.
Comment by X September 2, 2009 @ 11:25 pm@X, i appreciate you coming out of silence to leave a comment. it’s always nice to know there are real people actually reading and enjoying the filth i spew. *smile*
Comment by Gracie September 3, 2009 @ 5:13 amYou call it filth. I call it perverted genius. *grin*
Comment by X September 4, 2009 @ 8:32 pmWTF! You posted this in August and it showed up in my Bloglines NOW. Ugh. But back to the point, I’m sorry you’re struggling and I feel very much the same these days, in lots of turmoil, unhappy, lonely and muse-less.
I’m here, even a month late, damn it, if ever you need anything, please just ask.
I miss your filthy genius. But life takes precedence,
Comment by Tess September 16, 2009 @ 6:08 am@X thank you. *smile*
@Tess that’s the story of my life! *laughing* i know we seem to have the same timing in life’s disasters. you are such a joy to talk with and i am glad i met you. thank you for your support. *hugs n bites*
Comment by Gracie September 16, 2009 @ 1:00 pmHey, I’m trying to get back into it again, Gracie. And if I can do it, ANYBODY can. I spent some time today going back through my old posts, and that’s kind of helped me get back in the groove. Hang in there, kiddo!
Comment by Rupert September 21, 2009 @ 8:29 pmGood luck hope everything will get better
Comment by stephy September 22, 2009 @ 7:30 am@Rupert you sound like a sex blogger infomercial! *laughing* i know what you mean. i think once this all blows over i will be back to writing, i hope. *smile*
@Stephy thank you.
Comment by Gracie September 22, 2009 @ 10:48 amYou’re giving me impure thoughts. Again.
Comment by X September 23, 2009 @ 10:30 pm